reflecting over 8 weeks

Tomorrow Elijah will be 8 weeks old. I can't believe it. I have watched my "Sweet Pea" just grow and grow and my love for him just keeps growing, too. It's true what "they" say...it's hard to imagine life before he was a part of our little family. Elijah has been a true joy. My first few weeks as a mother were quite a roller coaster ride of emotions. I would go from thinking "this is the greatest thing in the world" to thinking "what in the world have I gotten myself into." I've had moments of true clarity while being a mom as well as moments of great doubt. I never knew that I would begin to worry so much when we had our son, but God has been good to help me (mostly) keep my head on straight and gain control of my thoughts. (Reminding me that Elijah is His).


My days seem so strange to me lately...a never ending cycle of baby events. I feel so crazy on the days when our routine seems to go haywire, but days like today when Elijah is a "dream baby" I just feel so complete in what I am doing right now. I desperately need to put some more "me time" in to my routine...(aka: I've gotta make some friends and get out of this house!) ...but overall, I am so thankful to be staying at home with Sweet Pea and watching him grow.


Recently, he has been smiling SO big and cooing like crazy. I just can't get enough of that! Sometimes he'll just smile up at me and I just can't help but cry because my heart is so full. What an unbelievable feeling to love someone so tiny so much. Elijah has been sleeping so good at night. I am so blessed. Today he woke up in his crib about 7:30 and just laid there and cooed and talked to himself for about 10 minutes. I just don't know how it can get any better than that! I feel like my whole being is now wrapped up in his accomplishments instead of my own. I can't wait to see what God has planned for this little boy.


One of my favorite things is taking Elijah to church. My little Sweet Pea just eats up the attention of all the ladies in the nursery. (I'm so in trouble since all of his little nursery friends are gonna be girls!) He's been so good in the nursery so far. Our church has tv's in the nursery rooms for the workers to listen to the service and they all tell me that he just turns his little head toward the screen whenever his daddy is singing or the choir is singing. I just love that!

Just this week, Elijah has started smiling at me while I'm nursing him. He'll just take a quick break and smile so big up at me. I'm telling you...Justin is gonna come home one day and just find me in a puddle on the floor! I can't believe he's 8 weeks old tomorrow, but I definitely owe the blog some pictures, so check in for a photo update!